In the morning, I went to Carl’s with Dennis and Tony. That was fun LOL. There are a lot of crazy folks in there.
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Today was our last and only home meet of league. [against Rancho.]
I only did 50 frees today because I had to fill in for others, and was therefore taken out of the 100 free. …
You know whats funny?
I told Truong to give you his contacts. So I did help you out :]
of stupid things piss me off and has forced me to make a secondary blog just like John Tran that will be unsubscribed to any other blogs, so I can just spill out my thoughts on a BLOG! Yea, a blog. Not random reposts of dumb pictures, dumb quotes, and dumb everything else that no one really cares about. Yea, you found a love quote, let’s reblog every fucking quote you find. Oh some cute pictures, let’s reblog that too. That really gets annoying. So this account will just be my thoughts on life without any reblogs. Llamallamallama.tumblr.com will be used to reblog others and have conversations on tumblr with people.
There’s a lot of people that I’m following that just mindlessly reblogs images and quotes and I’m getting pretty tired of it. I want to read about a person. I don’t need 30 reblogs of korean guys all over my page.
So I made 2 accounts. mindofjohn will be unsubscribed to most of everyone. this account will be subscribed to people I used to subscribe.
The reason I joined tumblr was to share my thoughts. Then I began to stray afar from it. I got too nosy about people’s lives. If I have a blank slate on my dashboard, maybe my mind won’t be so cluttered up by the problems of others.
Tumblr is Pandora’s box. I learned a lot of things I didn’t really want to know.
So why do I have this account? In case I get bored and I need to kill time.
The need to simplify my life has never been so much greater. If there’s someone that’s interesting to read, I’ll keep them on mindofjohn. I really don’t need to read 5 pages of drama. It really makes me worry for them, stressing me out. Throughout this month I’ve read nothing but negative posts. Nothing that would cheer a person up. I really don’t need to know that.
I feel like I’m shutting myself from the world. Being ignorant to everything around me. But ignorance is a bliss.
This might be random. But Alicia gave me some great advice last night.
She talked about how she came to America when she was young. In Mexico, her room was occupied by 5+ other people. Sometimes she slept in the streets. And her story about her immigration into the US.
And then she said.
“You know John, if you look around you, the world is not a bad place. You’re so confined in your own little world with your own problems. But there’s a much bigger world around you.”
And this changed my outlook in the world.
This is coming from a person who’s been so close to death. She had so much hardships in the past, it makes all my problems look minor. I can’t believe she’s so… optimistic about life, considering with all the things she’s gone through.
Why am I complaining about my problems? I should be glad I have such a privileged life. I live in a 3 bedroom home with food and water. My own room with a computer with 2 monitors and a bed. I eat to grow, and not to survive. My only goal in life is to go to school and get good grades so I can go to ANOTHER school where I can be more educated.
Most kids are staving. They don’t have the choice to attend school. I remember Alicia telling me how freaked out she was when she discovered what a computer was when she was in 8th grade.
I’m so used to my lavish lifestyle, that I feel like I require more. But looking around me, I have everything I need. I should be content with what I have.
When she said those words, I did look around me. I just got out of school, played water polo, then went home and ate. Then drove to Don Wash to play in an Orchestra.
If you think about it, how many kids can do that? Some schools don’t have a polo program, or even a swimming pool.
But anyway. Just something to think about.
Sorry Alicia for putting you on blast. But, I really admire you… :( Thinking about your future is making me tear up.
Alicia Flaaaares. I love you. :[
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